Let me start. I previously resided in a north eastern US state, I had a good job, a good partner, a nice place to live. I thought I’d made it.

I started having medical problems, discovered I carry certain genes and such. Was having trouble getting them diagnosed, but such is life.

Then my good partner left me, I lost my job of a year and a half, and I thought a fresh start near family would be good. I decided to move cross country. Which I regret, I want to leave but now I don’t have the resources so here I am.

I just can’t seem to get a job, I’ve applied at over 2000 jobs in the last 6 months. My previous job was managing the entire technology infrastructure for an IT company. The one before that was the IT Manager for a small company. I have the experience, but I can’t get a job.

Last night I swerved to avoid deer in the road, got stuck in the mud and had to get towed out. I’m flat broke, I can’t get a job, I have nothing. I lost everything. And I don’t see myself ever recovering it. I have the experience and skill to do at least mid and some high level IT work.

I desperately want a remote job because my car is not reliable, my partner got the good car sadly. I’ve certainly made mistakes, I’ve certainly failed. But I don’t think I deserve this much pain and suffering. I have nothing, I’ve lost it all. I can’t find a job. I don’t dare look for a partner while I’m a dead broke loser, so I have no one to share with.

Anyways, I apologize for whining and crying, I know we’re all going through things. But I have nowhere to vent and it just keeps getting worse and I honestly don’t think I’ll ever get out.

Love you all. Thanks for reading. Please think of me when you get a chance and send good vibes my way.

  • thisjustin@lemm.eeOPEnglish
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    9 months ago

    Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts. I’m fine with sharing my resume with whoever would like to look (no email needed, it’s hosted on my website). I have applied at the lowest of low tech jobs and completely unrelated jobs but yes, as someone below pointed out my resume is probably too experienced for them to hire me for it.

  • OsrsNeedsF2P@lemmy.mlEnglish
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    9 months ago

    2000 applications without a job says either resume is poorly done or you’re bad at interviews. If the callback rate is less than 1 in 20, improve the resume, otherwise improve your interview skills.

    Hit the gym so your brain starts thinking better, also it obviously helps with a lot of downward feelings.

    • thisjustin@lemm.eeOPEnglish
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      9 months ago

      I have three primary skill sets -

      First, tech, everything from hardware to software, switchs, Meraki, Unifi, WatchGuard, RMM software, Veeam, backup disaster recovery setup/maintenance, failure redundancy, domain admin, server (Windows and Linux) admin, web hosting. Azure, M365, traditional office, HTML/CSS/Javascript/PHP/Python/Powershell/BASH, etc etc

      Second, moving industry. I can’t physically do the moving anymore, but I was a driver and crew lead for over a year. Afterwards I was the sales/estimation office assistant manager. I still did my own estimates, but also reviewed all outgoing estimates and handled any customer issues with our estimates. I also handled the commercial contracts.

      Third, I worked for a Steelcase dealer and did vendor pricing, discounting, freight rates, POs, etc.

  • Candelestine@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    9 months ago

    To add to what someone else said, try to get some exercise. It can be free, and your brain needs some endorphins in there to help counteract all that pain. It won’t be a solution or anything, but it can help a little with the symptoms. Jogging, a pushup/situp regimen, whatever works for you. Can kinda give you a physical outlet for some of the pain sometimes.

    Good luck.