• Maeve@kbin.earth
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    4 months ago

    You are so welcome, friend. Thank you, and it’s fine. I look at how long after the initial recognition that if it’s not ok for others to do it to me, then it’s not ok for me to do it to others, to actually put in the effort to change, to how quickly i I had a relapse (even to defend, not abuse), to trying it again, and I understand. Not wanting to admit I have behaviors that are just as ugly, then again how long it took me to even work up the courage to try to be better than myself (be best isn’t a bad ideal to strive for), I get it. Behaviors that are trauma responses in the beginning become habits become acceptable. I will relapse again. I will try again.

    So this is just to say, when I realize how hard it is to honestly look at and control myself, I get how hard it is for my fellow humans, and with practice and persistence, learn to give a little grace. I’m happy to share this journey with a few kind, extremely brave and strong individuals such as yourself. May the force/source/our better services be with us.

    Sending you a hug across the ethers. May you be happy and whole.